This world is full of things a version of me considers big, bad and scary. A world created by a version of me that is overwhelmed with my deepest anxieties that at times seem inescapable. Even within this dark world, I still find myself being able to create and live in a pocket of happiness full of the things that fulfill me, almost as if they were created to take me away from a reality where I am surrounded by mountains with which I was tasked to move.
Sometimes that pocket of happiness is overfilled with little joys. Other times that pocket is lighter and requires deeper digging to find that one joy for the right moment: letting myself be overcome with the seemingly inescapable big, bad and scary.
Now, you may be wondering what exactly this pocket is filled with. Well, you’d be surprised to find that it’s exactly what you may expect. Filled with things like people who value me just as much as I value them, the good food and laughs I’m able to share or experience with, the scheduled moments of reflection the cool fall breeze and changing leaves outside my window bring, knowing how much of the world I’ll get to see soon, the small joys of cute cat and dog videos, finding a book, song, movie or show that gets me to feel to something new, or the refreshing feeling of a cold pillow and the comfort of a warm blanket.
Sometimes in a world full of big, bad and scary, all it takes to feel happiness is a small pocket of peace. Whether empty or overfilled, all it takes is that one thing to make it feel okay again.