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I may have not been your first love, but you were always mine

I kept my emotions hidden, and I thought it’ll be fine

I destroyed my inner innocence by being infatuated with you,

I was foolish and immature, thinking you’ll be infatuated with me too.

We were kids and still growing to become adults one day

Those impaired unresolved emotions will disappear, I prayed

I got on my knees and cried to God to make the pain go away

I have to identify what is the problem in order for me to say

I’m sorry for the way how things happened between us

But I don’t regret the feelings that were merely expressed but never truly discussed

You were a part of my world and I know I was part of yours 

but we couldn’t find each other’s paths because of the many detours

You and I faced so much trying to understand one another 

In the end, we failed to admit that our love was like no other

We both lived different lives from each other, which has left me to wonder

Was it truly our differences that unleashed that relentless thunder

The heavy rain showers embody the reflection of my tears 

While the lightning strikes from the heavens above had detected an unknown fear,

I lied to myself saying I can get over it since it’s really no big deal

It just takes time to process our last moment together after the drastic reveal

Healing is the word we all seek to stop the uneasiness 

But no one has the time clock for when the antidote will cure this illness 

The words your spirit has spoken to me still linger on, making me unsteady

“You’re not right for me right now, but I’ll let you know when I’m ready”

I’m afraid when you’re ready is the day I’ve finally given up

But I will always remember the spark I had with you that made me star-struck

Our love story is over and it’s time for me to move on and say goodbye

To my first love, always and forever, I wish you nothing but the best in this life

P.S. Thank you for being a chapter in my story

Yours truly,

~ Kailah

Kailah is a third-year student pursuing a B.S. in Neuroscience and minor in Cognitive Science at Michigan State University. She is obsessed with learning about the creation of earth science and the formation of health science. She has a passion for creating music compositions and performing on a variety of instruments. In her free time, she enjoys self-teaching herself how to play music arrangements on the piano, guitar, and the violin. Kailah gets her inspiration from watching many TV/Movie genres and enjoy playing video games. She also adores writing genuine articles and remarkable poetry that many individuals can relate to.
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