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It seems as though I’m floating,

Perhaps to a realm above my own. 

I have never been there, 

Or maybe I have in my youth. 

No matter because it has been a while since I forgave myself. 

Yesterday was tough

And so was the day before. 

Tears never seem to stop flowing from me, 

But they stop me from being me. 

I miss the feelings of excitement.

What happened to my innocence, 

My desires for a better life?

What happened to my dreams,

My passions,

My willingness to be alive?

I suppose they left, 

Perhaps to another realm. 

Here I was now, though:

Afraid,

Anxious,

Alone

Again.

I so desperately needed something or someone to help me.

It turns out that I was my own answer all along. 

I had to admit that maybe I was my own problem.

And I had to accept that maybe I was my own solution.

“Place a hand over your heart and, Aditi, please forgive yourself for being human.”

Do I deserve it, though?

Do I deserve happiness?

I guess so. 

If not for me, 

Maybe for those around me right now.

I’ll get to myself in a bit. 

And so,

I guess I need to forgive myself. 

Forgive myself for my mistakes,

For being so hard on myself for so long.

Maybe things will be alright this time.

Cheers babe, here’s to us.

A Michigan State University student by day, an 8-hour sleeper by night Aditi would best describe herself as a "rather simple enigma." As she embarks on her college journey, Aditi cherishes the simple things in life: a cup of coffee, some pastel post-it notes, and her ever-growing succulent.
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