I’m in a place where I feel like I really don’t belong
I scroll and see many posts and continue to prolong
I start to view my life in a way I haven’t before
Yet my feelings are hurt but I want to see more
The more I see and the more I reflect
The reflection in the mirror is the thing I regret
I want to be like them I silently say to myself
But I know it’s just a fantasy while battling my mental health
I try to cease the scrolling and the tapping of my fingers
But I failed to succeed and the negative emotions linger
At times I get this feeling that I’m an invisible ghost
As I compare my conventional life to others who post
When I finally get the strength to put down my phone
I get this depressing feeling that I’m all alone
I say upsetting things about myself that aren’t true
I feel that no one knows what I really go through
So I go on social media and try to mimic the lives of others
There are still pieces in my life that I will never uncover
I can’t break this cycle or others may see the real me
I just want to be happy with who I am and to be free
I begin to feel numb as I excessively explore the web
It’s the same story over and over again about some influencer or celeb
The majority of social media is about posting things in their lives
But the reality of social media is boasting because of pride
I verbally abuse myself because I still compare my life to theirs
Even though I should know better because I am fully aware
But that doesn’t stop my mind from influencing my emotions
Creating upsetting mood swings that causes commotion
I wish I could stop but a part of me proceeds
I instantly regret doing it because I start to believe
Believing in the untrue words I tell myself everyday
I want the sorrow, hurt, and pain to all go away
If I was famous I know it will be a lot of pressure
To please others for the sake of their own pleasure
I’ll be happy as ever for receiving wonderful compliments
There would be many people who will troll me for my accomplishments
Things aren’t always pretty on the other side of the fence
People have reckless tongues and at times can be really dense
I’ll try so hard to please everyone as much as I can
But my feelings get hurt as I start to lose fans
No one knows my story and will never see my side
Because they’ll judge me anyway and believe its a lie
I can’t keep from wondering why some perceive me as a wannabe
But I’ll keep holding on because there is someone out there who believes in me
I pressure myself to do things that make me uncomfortable
Because of the pressure of social media makes me feel vulnerable
I always thought that only others can bully you
But now I have realized that you can be the bully too
We all are victims of the way society is portrayed
It’s up to us if we take a stand and change our ways
A man named Rosling has helped me see life differently
He discusses many instincts that people uses consistently
The Gap instinct divides us into categories we don’t deserve to be in
The single perspective instinct doesn’t allow us to look at someone from within
The division between us is created by the ignorance of statements
Due to only trusting our instincts or someone else judgements
There are different sides to stories and we all have our own book
No one should think less of themselves and feel like their overlooked
Because we are all imperfectly unique and that is simply okay
Let’s not compare ourselves to others because we are beautiful in our own way