When l went to the psychiatrist for the first time I honestly didn’t know what was going to come of it. My mom has depression and my sister has ADHD, so obviously mental illness runs in the family. But why would it take until my young adult years for me to start showing any symptoms? Little did I know when my appointment was over I’d be walking out with a whole new piece to my identity; Bipolar Depression. With that came medication to help with some of what had been going on – sadness, irritability, lack of motivation. Have you ever felt like that?
I didn’t even know Bipolar Depression was a thing, let alone that there was medication for it. I didn’t want people to know that there was something “wrong” with me, or that they always had to be on alert when they were around me. It just made me want to hide more, honestly. But once I slowly started to take the new medication I was put on (there were some trial and error trust me) I started to see and feel a difference. It made it easier to see what and who my triggers were so that I could avoid them or kick them out of my life altogether. If this is something you have been considering, then maybe you should give it a shot. I know personally that it can be scary to try something new, especially medicine, but you’ll have someone there to help you – just make sure to be honest.
What I’m trying to say here is that being on medication for a mental illness doesn’t make you crazy it makes you STRONG. It puts you ahead of your illness to where some days you may not even notice it’s there. If you have been skeptical about trying psychiatric medication, don’t be. Make an appointment and talk to someone, and hey let them know your fears; I promise you, you’re not the first one that has expressed them and you won’t be the last. And whatever you do, don’t give up – keep trying until you find what’s right for you.