For me, autonomy has always been one of my most precious and essential values. Independence for me is equal to that of freedom and it will always be. But after spending a few months in my college apartment I couldn’t shake the uneasiness and depression that had seemingly taken over me. That’s what I knew it was time to visit home again and it might be time for you as well. Here are some ways that I realized that maybe it was time to visit after all.
Before I begin and I would like to preface that I currently go to a college that is around four to five hours away from my home so it is drivable but it’s really a whole day affair. That is one of the main reasons why I found myself unable to go home. Especially due to the fact that I don’t own a car and if I wanted to go home I’d have to use public transportation. With spring break becoming virtually non-existent in the coronavirus world we live in and being replaced with that of wellness days which is a whole another problem that I’ll talk about someday. I found myself realizing that I wouldn’t be able to go home I wouldn’t be able to see my parents see my dogs see my siblings for 6 months until school for that semester ended. In the beginning, I was okay with that fact or at least I tried to tell myself I was okay, but soon I realized that wasn’t the case.
So after a lot of deliberation and stress on my part, I decided to just well screw it and take a week off and go home. And let me just say I’m so happy that I made the decision seeing my parents again after almost 3 months was very therapeutic for me. And while sometimes I do worry that I am getting too attached and I need to be more independent I realize that Independence doesn’t have to mean loneliness and then I’m allowed to be happy and you should be too.