Here I go complaining about my body and how much it changed… so many people tell me I shouldn’t complain about my body because I’m still small or skinny to them. Usually, I avoid even talking about how I feel physically because I shouldn’t be allowed to complain. But my feelings are valid and so are everybody else’s, whether they weigh less than me or weigh more than me.
I used to not mind how I looked much, but then I got into a healthy relationship about 2 years ago and ever since then, all I’ve done is eat my happiness away. It also doesn’t help that I turned 21 recently, so my body is throwing all of my skinny days behind me. I’m growing into an adult body and quarantine really showed me that.
I tried to work out (Chloe Ting videos are awesome by the way), and that lasted for about 2 months. Since I started going back to work and school, everything in me that told me to stay healthy told me there wasn’t enough time anymore. I actually got into working out, and it relieved a lot of the stress that I would have from working from home. Although I love everything I do, now that I have so much on my plate, I wish I had the time to work out and relieve that stress again. And I know people use that excuse all the time, “I don’t have time”, and “if you really cared, you would make time”. So I guess, if you look at it that way, I really don’t care about how I look.
Do I complain sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror? Yes. And that’s completely normal. Should you be doing that every day and putting yourself down? No. But it’s normal to have feelings about your body whether they’re positive or negative. Personally, I am so tired of seeing those messages all over Instagram telling you that you should love yourself all the time and be accepting of who you are. We all have those days where we look and feel like s***. Don’t be scared to show that off, because as corny as it sounds, you’re human.
Some days you will feel like the baddest b**** on the planet, and other days you just want to lay in bed and hide from the world. Please remind yourself that you are normal just the way you are. Learning how to love yourself is a process that is never-ending.