Confession time: I was addicted to social media.
Every spare minute I was checking Instagram, TikTok or Snapchat. Every little moment of my life had to be photographed and posted. I never let myself have quiet moments and I didnāt realize how much of a problem it was until the end of the semester.
My best friendās birthday was in December and we threw a little dorm party. Instead of living in the moment and having fun, I was fixated on how the pictures turned out and making sure I posted them immediately. That night shouldāve been about celebrating her, but in my mind, it was about curating the perfect Instagram.Ā
Donāt get me wrongāI love photography and I want to capture memories with my friends, but chasing the dopamine rush of posting and waiting for likes and comments? Thatās not a sustainable way to live.
When winter break rolled around, I knew I needed a reset.
At first, I set time limits on my apps. But letās be realāwhen the ā15 more minutesā option popped up, I tapped it without thinking. My phone was glued to my hand, my eyes locked on the screen. I needed something more drastic.
Then, one night, a friend texted me asking if she should delete TikTok. Out of curiosity, I checked my screen time and nearly choked. Two to three hours a day spent on TikTok alone. The answer was clear. That night, I saved a few favorite videos and deleted the app. I also hid Instagram in a folder and slapped on an app limit to make it less tempting.
Youād think Iād feel anxious, wondering what I was missingāwhat trends, what news, what updates. But honestly I felt light as if I had cut off a weight I didnāt even know I was carrying.
And then another realization hit me: I had no hobbies.
Every free moment had been swallowed by school, work or my phone. Without social media to fill the gaps, I suddenly had hours of unstructured timeāand I didnāt know what to do with it.
So, I picked up an old sketchbook for the first time since middle school. I listened to music I used to love. I even took my flute out of its case (practicing had always been my least favorite thingā¦ or so I thought). My laptop quickly filled with writing, ideas and half-finished articles. And you know what? I didnāt even miss my phone.
I used to say, āI donāt have time for hobbies.ā Turns out, I didāI was just spending it in ways that didnāt actually feed me.
I still take plenty of pictures, but now, most of them are just for me. Theyāre not perfect for instagram, but I love them even more.Ā
You are so much more than your follower count, likes or views. My social media detox gave me my brain back. And I know everyone and their mother says āItās the phone!ā But it really is that dang phone.
So if youāre on the fence about taking a break, do it. You donāt have to delete everything but even just making space for real-life hobbies can give you the perspective shift you didnāt know you needed.
I still love a good Instagram photoshoot but now Iām in control of itānot the other way around. And I hope you can be too. <3