It never occurred to me that I love you. Not in the typical romantic way in movies when they look into each other’s eyes, wrap their arms in an embrace, and kiss in the rain. Nothing like that.
It was always the little things that made me fall in love with you. The times we spent together made me smile. The acts of kindness you’d show when I’m feeling down. The moments where we’d laugh because of a stupid viral meme.
The little things, they add up every day and makes a whole heart last a lifetime. It’s a beautiful yet terrifying thing when I know that you’re a part of me. That if you were gone, I’d feel incomplete without you. What do you think? Is this true?
Sometimes I think I’ll lose you too. If I’m burdening you with the pain I feel, the weight of my deep sadness on your shoulders, and the hours of agonizing silence where I left words unspoken. The words ‘you suck, but I love you, and I’m always here for you.’
It’s hard to validate our feelings. When oftentimes, we both couldn’t even begin to explain why they motivated us to do certain things for each other. But when I closed my eyes before falling asleep, I could feel the warmth beating in my chest — knowing that having you in my life makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.
I still carry the seasons of our love every day. Sometimes it’s an airy summer day, and sometimes it’s a dark winter under blankets of snow. It changes, and it goes, with all the highs and the lows, it is still love that grows.
I love you more than you’ll ever know in this lifetime, and it will go on even when my heart flatlines.
There are no more words left to write that could even begin to explain who I love, why I love, what I love, where I love, and how I love.
from yours truly, with all the love in our universe