Let’s talk about the dreaded A word:Â Acne. We all get it, and most of us hate it. In middle school, when a pimple showed up on your forehead, you steal your motherâs concealer and pray no one would notice.
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At the age of 10, I noticed a few marks on my face and I was panicked. I started scrubbing the first acne product I could find, and it gave me scars that are still on my face to this day. Soon, because of the amount of stress I faced in school throughout middle and high school, it got incredibly worse. Most of my face was covered in acne scars and I had accumulated rosacea.
I would have anxiety attacks every day before school for the constant bullying just crippled me to think anything other than the fact that I was considered âugly.â So, I started clinging to makeup, just so maybe no one would call me ugly.
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The panic attacks stopped, but the bullying didnât. I was still made fun of for my appearance: I did my makeup âwrongâ, I looked âbumpyâ, and that I looked like a âhooker.â
I didnât care though because, for some reason, the thought of going bare-faced was more frightening than being ridiculed for my acne. Iâd wake up at 5:00 am every day to do so, anything for people to not see what I looked underneath it all. It became an obsession. I only focused on the makeup, not actually taking care of my skin or wellbeing.
It didnât hit me until college to look in the mirror, bare-faced, to realize, âWhy do I hate my face so much?â
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It hit me that I wasnât putting on makeup because I loved it, I was truly trying to hide my face. So, I decided to take care of my face and work on my self-love, but it wasnât easy. I still had panic attacks when I would go outside without makeup, but little by little, I grew okay with it.
No one stared, no one cared anymore, and the better thing was, neither did I.
I grew confident in myself when Iâd leave the house. I wasnât going to let a few scars deter me from going outside. Itâs natural.
I realize thereâs this huge unnamed pressure that we all have to look IG-worthy every minute of every day, but letâs face it, thatâs crazy standards to put yourself to.
When it comes down to it,  no one cares if you have acne, we all can relate to it. The people who make fun of it arenât people you need to even acknowledge or allow to affect your wellbeing.
Youâre not alone. Half of adult women have acne, and a quarter of adult men have acne as well- 50 million Americans have acne and thereâs no problem with that. If youâre taking care of your skin and your body, donât be ashamed that you donât have perfectly clear skin. Donât be ashamed of your acne. It doesnât detract from your beauty, it doesnât make you any less of a person, the truth is, itâs a natural occurrence.
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