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the self

X. Ramos-Lara Student Contributor, University of North Carolina - Chapel Hill
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it’s me isn’t it?

i’m the person i’ve wanted to be all along

but i’ve brought shame to my name

and broken every mirror

so i wouldn’t have to look at what                i’ve become

the embodiment of love

the sunshine i swallow in the morning

the serotonin i wished for long ago

but who am i now?

i’m not myself but i am

i’m tired i’ve been tired i’llcontinuetobetired

my smile is different

i can see the hope and dreams i wanted for so long

seeping through and ready to infect my body

i’m poisonous i’mfilledwiththejoyofbeingalive

i hated it but i guess i’m in love with my self

 

Hello! My name is X. and I'm a senior at UNC-CH majoring in Gender Studies and English. When I'm not stressed out about doing research on non-white gender performance for my thesis I like to write queer poetry. Welcome to this little sliver of my mind!