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Hi! I’m Jaime. I am currently in my third year of college and I’m studying psychology and nutrition. After I graduate, I’m going to get my masters in Clinical Mental Health Counseling. My favorite color is purple. I love writing, creating art, cooking, working out, photography, and music. My dog is 7 years old and is a Jack Russel Corgi mix. To be honest this sounds like a random dating app profile bio right now. But, anyways this is what I told my class the other day for the first-week introductions (after I was told to talk about myself for thirty seconds.) My mind was flooded with anxiety. Which is so annoying because after I was like “I don’t care just put me up in front of the class already and I’ll do a whole stand-up set. That’s the real joke because that would never happen, because I’m me. Now I’ll get into that by sharing a few questions I’ve pondered recently.
Am I introverted or extroverted?
Introverted for sure. But, when I am with close family and friends I can talk forever and get annoying honestly. Being introverted has allowed me to observe, listen, and gain more knowledge. Of course I wish presenting was easier and communicating with people but I’ll continue writing it down for later ;)
What do I like about myself?
I used to not think about myself that much. That was until I started journaling and learning to appreciate myself. I like my brown eyes, strength, pink lips, softness, independence, the scent of floral perfume, mindset, style, and music taste. Allowing an abundance of care and love within myself to continue growing in life.
Am I more passive or assertive?
Passive. I am definitely one of those people who struggle to confront others and people please too much. Also, I tend to just go with the flow and can have fun doing anything. I have my own opinions and passions in life but I care so much about others. I’ve started to realize the importance of saying no and thinking before I speak. I’m not overly nice but I want to help and listen to others. Hey at least I know that about myself and it benefits me as a psychology major.
Would I rather be the one holding the camera or the one in front of it?
I’m always holding the camera. I feel like since I was young I’ve always hid in the background or been afraid to be the center of attention. There is something special about creating a display of pictures that holds meaning in little ways. Stepping back allowed me to snapshot and develop pictures to see the beauty. I once heard it’s the strangers you meet or random pictures you take that really impact your life. It’s so true because of the social influence, memory, and spontaneity.
Am I looking at life with an all-or-nothing perspective or with some rational?
Rational. I used to have an all-or-nothing perspective when I was controlling all my meals and workouts to have the ideal body and diet. Now, I am able to tune into my senses and intuition to guide me in my day to day. Looking at the positive has been crucial to living a happy and healthy lifestyle. It’s all about that balance between planning and letting go.
Is life simple or complex?
Very simple. It seems complex sometimes but it is all up to your mindset and how you process and perceive things. At first I was thinking of answering these questions with more complexity but simplicity is the key. Always just making the decision, following the gut, and doing what brings me joy. I guess my mind complicates things but in day to day life actions and words and situations are simple.
What is this chapter of my life called?
This chapter is seriously a question mark. I used to title the chapters of my life for each semester of college. Whether I was growing and discovering more about myself, going through stressful times, or just having fun and getting out of my comfort zone. It’s almost like I am doing the most growing by just applying everything I’ve learned. It’s important to take a step back every now and then and rest in the knowing. Your 20’s are all about figuring out your life and what works best for you right?
Something surprising is that over winter break I got a tattoo. A permanent one not one of those little temporary ones from Walmart. Super crazy because after reading this you probably thought I was just some innocent shy little girl. I will say it is a butterfly tattoo (with so much more meaning though). Anyways, I guess turning 21 last month and being in this unknown chapter really triggered something in me to just go for it.
Looking back and looking forward I’ll leave my notes page with this:
Who knows where life will lead? Maybe that’s the beautiful thing about it ~the uncertainty. Things happen. I’ve realized it’s all about sharing my own voice, accepting, and embracing the simplicity when everything is made so complex. Using my lens falling into the unknown, season by season, chapter by chapter.