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I Stand Behind Exclamation Points

This article is written by a student writer from the Her Campus at Bentley chapter.

This poem was written in the style of a nonet by someone who wishes to remain anonymous. It goes out to everyone who has ever stood concealed behind exclamation points and smiles, hoping for someone to break through.

 

A nonet poem contains nine lines, starting with nine syllables in the first line, then eight syllables, then seven, all the way down to one in the final line. If this poem touched your heart in any way, please pass it on.

 

 

I stand behind exclamation points

My false sense of enthusiasm

And smiley faces hiding

 That hole of mine inside

Call it emptiness

A gaping void

Say I’m fine

I am

Not

 

Vulnerability is weakness

So we don’t let anything show

Yet we continue to wish

That somebody would hear

Know, notice our cry

Silent, pleading

A kind word

All we

Need?

 

You want to laugh and smile a second

Want the emptiness to be filled

Yet you wait, hoping, wishing

Empty wasn’t so strong

Because it will win

The empty wins

Every

Single

Time

 

I think of people all of the time

But I wonder if someone could

Be thinking of me also?

I don’t want to bother…

Afraid to reach out

So hot showers,

Blankets are

My warmth

Now

 

We are all fighters, that’s what they say

We will live, it will be alright

But someone who doesn’t say

‘It will all be alright’

But makes it alright

That’s what we want…

Too easy

Life’s

Not

 

Never truly know what someone else

Is going through; the outside’s fine

You don’t have thirteen reasons

Why do you feel this way?

Don’t stare at your phone

Don’t wait for it

Don’t count on

Someone

Else

 

It is hard making it look easy

Is it just me, or does the world

Look a little bit grayer?

Before I fly away

Penny for my thoughts?

See, here is what

I’ve realized

I just

Can’t

 

But we hold on, even if colors

Are not quite as bright anymore

Waiting for that needed hug

Or just a simple touch

Or that caring word

We keep looking

For that spark

Where is

It?

 

 

The problem: to admit to someone

Would be to admit to yourself

So you are fine; I am fine

And I put on a smile

And I will be fine

Maybe not yet

But I will

Be fine

Soon

 

Because there is always hope on the horizon

Until there isn’t anymore

 

 

Allison Weed

Bentley '20

Allison Weed is a senior at Bentley University. She is majoring in Marketing with minors in Information Design and Corporate Communication, and International Affairs. She is the President and Campus Correspondent of the Bentley University Her Campus Chapter.