Home, Sick

The night is silent and all of the lights are off. It’s currently 5:31am, my nose is running, my body is convulsing with chills, it feels like I am swallowing two golf balls that have just been pulled out of a sand pit, and I’m running a fever of 103.2-- needless to say, gross details aside, I am very very sick. So all my plans have been canceled for the weekend and my bed is the new fun spot for the next five days. Don’t get me wrong, I am really bummed that my weekend is essentially ruined, but I’m not typically one to complain about a slight cold or the flu leaving me bed ridden for a little while. My biggest complaint however, as I lay in a dire state of what figuratively speaking, feels like death is that I don’t have my mom by my side waiting on me hand and foot to aid me back to recovery!

I don’t care that I am 21 years old and living on my own now. No matter what age I am, 21, 25, 29 , hell even 40, I don’t think that I will ever be fully content living hours away from my parents while I am ill. At this very moment there is nothing I want more than to regress back to my 10 year old self and to be cuddled up in my parents king sized bed, spooning a body pillow as my mom and dad constantly come in a check my temperature, bring me soup, and ask “is there anything else I can get you sweetie?” That’s right, no amount of adulting has prepared me for this exact moment right here.  

But I’m not going to throw myself a pity party! I will instead keep this post short and sweet as I throw on my big girl pants and make and attempt to take care of myself! Things could be much worse, and I know that if I need her, my mom is only a phone call away. I have also been advised that in my state of contagion I should stay in bed and isolate myself as to not contaminate anyone else! Though I feel miserable and wouldn’t wish this feeling on my worst enemy, yet alone my mom, I will heed the doctors warnings, stay in bed drugged up on Day and Nyquil, consume copious amounts of tea with lemon and honey, and binge watch Stranger Things seasons 1 and 2 on Netflix even though, in this moment, I wish nothing more than to be at home, sick.