Thoughts of an Anxious Mind

Not one person on this planet is the same, and neither are anxious minds. These are just the thoughts of mine. 

Other than “why me?”. 

I have been battling anxiety for a long time now and some days are better than others. But with finals right around the corner, the overthinking and stressing starts more and more. Luckily, I have people around me who are always there to listen and calm me down. But the crappy thing is, when someone you love says, “we need to talk”. 

We.

Need. 

To.

Talk. 

How can four words make my heart race so fast? Without thinking my mind goes crazy thinking of every worst case scenario possible. Of course I tell myself I am being irrational, and I know whatever comes my way, I can deal with it. In that moment no matter what I think, my body will not work with me. I sit and wait for the text to come back while not breaking eye contact with my phone. Thats when I get the text…

“What’re you doing for Christmas?”

All of that for nothing. Once my body stops its fight or flight mode processing, my heart rate goes back to normal. Then I pray I do not have to come encounter with anymore anxious moments, even though for someone like me…its inevitable. 

PS. For everyone out there with anxiety (even those who wont admit it to anyone, not even themselves) people will always be there for you and will listen. If no one will, I will. Stay strong out there, and once finals are done, RELAX! 

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