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Three weeks ago, something snapped inside me, and I’m still not able to really understand or explain it. It was basically a mental breakdown that was stretched out for much longer than I was ever used to. I wanted to give up. No matter what I did, nothing motivated me to take care of myself or get things done. I skipped classes and broke my gym streak. Getting out of bed and wearing a smile were the hardest thing I had to do everyday. When my parents called to check in on me, I lied and told them everything was great. I didn’t recognize myself at all.
These are 10 songs that have helped me get through my mental breakdown, and here is the link to my “just breathe” playlist for more:
https://open.spotify.com/user/starfire2020/playlist/5Gr6qUq077XAvXn6qOjEJZ?si=xQ86J_4rSFSQepJf8vf6Rg
1. hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have – Lana Del Rey
Don’t ask if I’m happy, you know that I’m not / But at best, I can say I’m not sad / ‘Cause hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
2. Heart of Gold – Birdy
When my heart is made from gold / And the hurt is just too bold / I still find it in my heart / To say I love you
3. Jungle – Tash Sultana
But you throw me into the deep end / Expect me to know how to swim / And I put my faith inside my hands / Cause I will be just fine
4. Pools to Bathe in – the Japanese House
It’s easy feeding fears with flowers / And staying wild while I’m just a child
5. Wake up – EDEN
And you’ll feel better when you wake up / Taking off your make up / Sun always seems to wash our fears away / And it’s always shining somewhere
6. Sun Comes Up (ft. James Arthur) – Rudimental
And I sang ’til my lungs were burnin’ / ‘Til I know I’m alive, alive, yeah / I’ll sit ’til I can’t hear words no more
7. Breathe me – Sia
Be my friend, hold me / Wrap me up, unfold me / I am small, I’m needy / Warm me up and breathe me
8. His Daughter – Molly Kate Kestner
So if you’re listening, could you give a helping hand / To your daughter
9. WHEN I WAS OLDER – Billie Eilish
I’m on my back again / Dreaming of a time and place / Where you and I remain the best of friends / Even after all this ends / Can we pretend?
10. To Build A Home (feat. Patrick Watson) – The Cinematic Orchestra
And, I built a home / For you, for me / Until it disappeared / From me, from you