I knew I wanted to go to college from a young age. It was a part of the plan for my life since elementary. I am a second-generation Mexican-American and was born into a life with many opportunities in front of me. My family immigrated to a new country, and they worked extremely hard in the hope of a brighter future. I knew I had to work hard to become that bright future they hoped for.
We are expected to make a huge decision at a young age that will change the path of our life, and starting the journey of college is terrifying. I was completely lost on where to even begin, but I had a strong feeling that everything would work out how it was supposed to. I knew I wanted to leave my hometown to find more opportunities, so I began watching countless videos on everything regarding the application process. I applied to many schools and, in the end, chose Texas A&M because it had a feeling of comfort that was lacking in the other schools. The first time I toured the campus I was overwhelmed with the feeling of excitement for the future.
Leaving home is bittersweet, and I was stuck between the happy feeling of starting a new chapter and the guilt of leaving my family. I have a huge family who is very close and a big part of who I am, so I knew I had to make some sacrifices in order to pay them back in the future for all they have done for me. They are so proud of me for being brave enough to chase after something I knew was necessary. They will always be my number one supporters, and I am extremely grateful for that.
My first semester here was a time of extreme discomfort and discovery. All the traditions are a huge part of the culture here, and a big part of the students have family who were also Aggies. I felt behind and lost, but I reminded myself that everyone’s paths are different and I should not compare mine to anyone else’s. I am deserving of my place here.
I found myself searching for someone that looked like me or to feel completely welcomed like other students were. I experienced microaggressions, and I felt isolated and alone, but it just motivated me to work harder.
I am at the end of my freshman year, and I still have a lot to learn, but here is some advice l will continue to remind myself of.
- I belong here and am very deserving of all the great opportunities I worked hard for.
- There is a community ready to help you; you will find your people.
- My culture will always be an important part of my identity, and I am proud of it.
- I am on my own path; comparisons will only take away my achievements.
- I am brave for leaving and learning on my own towards something I strongly believe in.
If I could say something to myself at the beginning of my freshman year I would say that you will go through some very low moments, but they will lead you to the happiest version of yourself. You will be more yourself than you have ever felt before, and you will find your people. Don’t be afraid to take risks and go past your comfort zone because that is where the best things are. Put yourself out there and take up so much space; don’t shrink yourself down for the comfort of others. Boundaries are important, so don’t let others take your kindness for granted. Call your family often and thank them for giving you this opportunity. Take necessary breaks and prioritize your health. Live fully, enjoy your journey, and be very proud of all you have done.
I still have 3 years of my college journey, so I have so much to learn. I am excited to look back at this time in my life in a few years and see how much I have grown. Your college experience is what you make of it, so make it yours and make it memorable.