Progress
[progress]
NOUN
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forward or onward movement toward a destination.
Here I sit;
Doing my work at what I believe is a steady pace.
Yet, the people around me are racing,
Constantly racing,
Like they are running out of time.
I see and observe
My peers, the ones all around me,
Sprinting and surpassing countless hurdles
All in the time it takes me to surpass one.
Everyday I feel my progress is abysmal
Compared to others.
Everyone is racing to reach their goals.
Yet, here I am just trying to begin my trek to reach my goals.
Everyday it just feels like everyone is moving faster;
While I am moving even slower.
What is progress and how can I check the boxes that I see others check off?
I know that everyone is unique and has their own path to follow,
But I can’t help but to compare all of my shortcomings with other’s successes.
Why do I feel so behind even though i’m taking all the proper steps in my own way?
When will the looming anxiety I face finally disappear, and I feel like I am on the right track?
I want to follow my peers on the journey, feeling safe that I am hitting all the landmarks.
But that is just not feasible, in the end it is my own power that will take me where I need to go.
How do I determine that destination when I can not even see it on the horizon?
I guess that is just for me to find out.
Sometimes I feel like I am actually going backwards instead of forward and that is terrifying,
Because these thoughts of whether everything will be alright weigh on my mind.
I have no choice but to trust in my own decisions,
And strive to achieve the progress I desire on this winding and branched path,
To get to the destination of my aspirations.
Hopefully I will soon have my feelings of success finally progress.