Why can’t I
say what I want
as If what I want affects the people around me
and my wants don’t matter.
Why can’t I
say what I like
afraid to say the shows that I watch on a Monday night
afraid that
people will judge me for my taste in shows
Why do I
Change how I dress
to be seen as attractive
in someone else’s eyes?
Why do I
pretend I’m not passionate about something
worried they will not approve
Why do I
have 5 different accounts
for 5 different groups of people
for things that I can and cannot say
and things that I can and cannot do
and things that I can and cannot say
around those people.
Why do I
lie about the type of music I like
to fit in with the people who look like me
as If my tastes in music make me less than?
Why do I
hide what I’m doing
so afraid they will ask questions
that I will have to lie about
Why can’t I
ever be 100 percent who I am
Why can’t I
say what I want
say what I like
Say how I feel
and do what I want
Why do I allow
the people around me to control me
and keep me from reaching my full potential
keep me from following my passions,
from trying my interests
and keep me from dancing to my own tune.
Why do I?
Why can’t I?