Dear migraine,
You always know when to come at the worst times, whether it is right before a big exam or when I have an important meeting that day. Even the slightest amount of stress will wake up the beast in you until I feel your wrath. I awake with a slight pulsing feeling in my left temple and know you will get worse as the day goes on. It feels like a hammer is repeatedly being taken to my head and almost nothing will stop the feeling. I have tried various amounts of caffeine, essential oils, cold wash cloths over my eyes, lots of water, and every pain reliever known to man with no avail. You keep me up at night and get worse when I lay down, you rear your ugly head when I do anything that involves moving my head or my body. I miss out on classes, important dates, even outings with friends because you have a hold on me to stay in bed – if I go out, I risk making everything worse. The nausea that accompanies your presence makes it hard to leave the house, afraid I will get sick on the way to my destination. You affect my eyes like nothing else does; they become achy and blurry, distant and vacant. You are the worst on a sunny day or in a brightly lit room when the lights become too much to handle. My ears beg everyone to be quiet, to have a moment to try and forget the pain. Your lingering presence day after day makes it hard to forget that you exist. I cannot perform like this. I cannot think, or speak or even remember important things because thinking, speaking or remembering is just too painful. My entire body shuts down at your command. You do not just affect me, you affect millions of other helpless individuals and we are all tired of it. I will not succumb to your wishes anymore, please leave me alone.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this to anyone?
Sincerely,
Victoria