We live in a time period where the world is rapidly changing and our younger generations are growing up faster than ever and I, Victoria Ragusa, will admit I am lost.
I am a sophomore in college and yet, I feel like I just graduated from high school. The past few years have passed me by without me getting a good look at what is going on. I am nineteen, turning twenty in two months and have more responsibilities than ever. I have to call to make my own doctors’ appointments, I’m a dreaded, but exciting, adult that is quickly being introduced to the “real world” and it terrifies me. With being an adult I have noticed I still get the same questions. I still hear the constant buzz going in through one ear and out the other that sounds a little like: “What do you want to do when you graduate?” Or even: “A communications degree will get you nowhere. It is a useless major.” It is the most frustrating thing to hear as a college student but even more frustrating because I actually do not know what I want to do once I graduate. I used to have a plan, I always did, but I have learned that as an adult, plans change and then one day you are thirty and still living at home with your parents.
My brother always told me in high school that I needed to put my childish tendencies behind me, such as taking naps in the afternoon and eating at all times of the days. How do I replace these habits with new ones? I feel as though I have lost the child in me. I feel like a tiny fish in a sea of great white sharks trying to eat me for dinner. I am scared to grow up and leave behind the only thing I know, even though I am excited to see what being an independent adult is truly like. I keep saying that I am ready to graduate and move out of my parents’ house, but am I really? Am I capable of supporting myself on my own? I am afraid of messing up the life of being an adult, but maybe I am more afraid of where life is taking me.