We have all had our hearts broken at some point. Whether it’s from a friend, family member or significant other, it all hurts the same. In my past, I found it so easy to spiral down a deep hole after a heartbreak. It becomes even easier to close yourself off from the world now that you have one less person to bring you daily happiness. We hear songs on the radio every day about heartbreak and loss. These feelings have the power to affect people so deeply. These thoughts contributed to my question of where do broken hearts go. What will happen to my own heart after experiencing this rush of sadness and extreme emotion?
Two years ago, I would have said that when things break they don’t get fixed. This downward spiral I had lasted over a year and was filled with sadness, self-pity and slowly cutting myself off from the world. It hit me so hard that I struggle to think about this point in my life. Someone important walked out, and I could not seem to shake it. I could feel the dark cloud above my head. I could sense the negative outlook I had on life. Finally, I needed to move on and decided to let go. Honestly, saying it is so much easier than actually letting go. I branched out and made amazing friends, new memories and began to become proud of who I am.
Here I am now, 21 years old. I’m beginning to feel similar emotions of sadness and confusion now that I’m again faced with a similar situation. When people leave it just doesn’t become easier. Trying to be positive becomes one of the most difficult tasks. Where do I go from here? I want to desperately go back to the confident girl I was in the summer. I am still that person. I still believe in myself in every way possible. I have big goals and ambitions that I am not going to lose. Whatever I do I put my whole heart into it. I know these things with 100% certainty. But, then I begin to let my mind wander. I think about how hard it is to lose someone you deeply care about, I remember memories and laughter, and I try to remember the voices. I have come to the conclusion that all of these wonderful things will fade. I will forget memories. Voices will soon begin to fade from my memory. But, I will always remember how I felt. Externally, the memories and joy will continue to put a smile on my face. Internally, I’ll always wonder why another wonderful thing in my life had to end.
So where do broken hearts go? After a little self-reflection, I have come to realize that my experiences good and bad make me the person I am today. It is important to set people free but to also do the same for yourself. Try not to continue to drag yourself down over what could have been. Look forward and think of what could be next. The world works in mysterious ways. People come into your life when you least expect it and then leave the same way. It’s best to use it as motivation to grow. I have been walked over, dumped, hurt and upset more times than I can count. But so what? I wouldn’t trade my experiences for anything even if they brought heartbreak. They also brought me laughs and memories that I am forever grateful for. It doesn’t matter what has happened to me, it matters where I go from here. Be proud, be independent and believe in yourself when nobody else does. Just keep in mind that if something is meant to happen, it will. Time mends all wounds, and fate works in ways you could never predict. This alone gets me through every difficult day and night.