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The pandemic has impacted almost everyone in a variety of ways. Only recently have I noticed just how much my mental health has changed because of it. My normal struggles with depression and anxiety have morphed in ways that make it hard to recognize when I need help. I know I am not the only one struggling, and I even believe I am one of the luckier ones. I am financially secure, healthy, and do not know anyone who was hospitalized due to COVID. 


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One of the more noticeable differences in my behavior is how I crave social interaction. I always considered myself an introvert, but after a year in relative isolation, I look for ways to be around people. Most times, I am not even looking for a conversation. I am happiest sitting in a room where other people are living their lives. I just want to know that I am not alone in the way I have felt for so long.

​I have even begun romanticizing things that I disliked a year ago: crowded parties, loud concerts, frequent travel. Overstimulation is a very real thing to me but having spent so long without it, I find I am longing for it. I cannot imagine myself being in a crowded room with the pandemic still on-going, but the idea of being around so many people dancing and singing without having to worry about the virus has become very attractive to me. 


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Going so long without serious social interaction has made it difficult for me to process the interactions I do have. I struggle to understand when someone is angry at me or just tired from a long day staring at a screen. While I want to interact with others, I find I lack to motivation to leave my room or plan COVID-safe activities. I binge watch tv shows, scroll social media, and avoid doing my homework for as long as possible. Even classes that I am extremely interested in often fail to convince me to get work done. 

I know I am not the only one feeling unmotivated and isolated, but it often feels like everyone else is handling the situation much better than I am. I hope that once the vaccine is widely distributed, I’ll be able to cope in healthier ways beyond binge eating pretzel sticks, but until then, I hope that sharing my struggles will help other people feel less alone.

Adrienne Poissant

Gettysburg '22

Adrienne is a senior at Gettysburg College studying political science and religious studies. Besides being a Campus Correspondent, she is involved in the wind symphony, Model United Nations, and enjoys reading and writing for fun!
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