Before I start writing this article, I would like to give a little background on how I came upon this writing this idea. I was walking to my class and I noticed how beautiful the leaves were: red, yellow, brown and green. The leaves change colors every year, and in a way, so do we. Well, we do not necessarily change colors (I mean duh), but our character and our perspectives change. As I was walking, I started thinking about all the ways I have changed since college, keeping in mind that I am only a second-year student. It is kind of scary to think that in just a short amount of time, I have grown to be someone else; someone strong.
I am an extremely goofy and non-serious person, I have always been and will continue to be until the day I die. I endeavor to be. However, I have learned to hone in my serious side as well. I used to think that being serious was lame and uptight, but now I find his serious side of myself amazing and rare. This side of me only comes out during my meetings, homework, interviews, and jobs. I have noticed my work ethic is at an all time high. I do not let it encompass me, but I do let it guide me to get things done.
Another change I have noticed is in my anxiety. I have had bad anxiety since I was young and I still do today. I am a Communication major, which is sort of ironic considering my anxiety, but it is something I love. As I continue to put myself out there, not only does my anxiety get worse, but my confidence grows as well. I am able to do things I could never do before, and I see myself being molded in this woman who can conquer anything. Everyday is a fight with my anxiety and most days I win, but other days I am defeated. And that is okay. I am growing and changing and trying new things and that is all that matters.
When looking into my perspective on things, that has certainly changed the most. I used to have a lazy, “yolo” mindset on all things. I seriously used to say yolo about everything anyone said to me and I just did not care. Now I have shifted into this perspective that is confident in everything. I do not make decisions based on yolo anymore, but rather I make decisions on how I feel and what I want. Getting to this perspective is something that took an extremely long time and hard work, and even today I am still working on it. Some days I want to sway to the ‘yolo’ side, the easy side, but I refrain. I embrace this new perspective that challenges me to think instead of doing.
This change we all experience on a yearly or day to day basis is something that should be embraced. I mean unless this change is bad and causing harm, do not embrace that. That is besides the point though. Sometimes change can feel foreign or weird, but sometimes it is for the best. I encourage you all to embrace the change college brings into our life and do not be afraid to let yourself grow into the scary, adult world.
Good luck this semester colligettes!