Why do I still long for you?
I was deafened by our past
The red flags began as valentine’s day hearts
The envy was tinted with sincerity
You slowly tore me apart
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“You should’ve known” rings back and forth
through my mind, but how could I?
Poisoned with charm and years-old photographs
Colored pink with nostalgia
The lie that you and me would last
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I didn’t get the last word
I thought it’d come in decades
I thought I still had time
You stare at me, seething, angry
Like you were never mine
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Something won’t let me move on
Your presence is a killer
I need a reason, but I think it’s too late
This was over years ago,
You just left me drowning in your wake
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My life goes on, not quite as planned
I guess I can say I’m better off
My back will forget your cold knife
I’ll grow up, and maybe so will you
You’ll learn that maybe you weren’t right
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I’ll miss our sunsets, I’ll tell them that we almost made it
Our pictures won’t fade away like our memories
I’ll miss your smile before you hated me
Some things don’t last forever
I just didn’t think you’d leave
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Why do I still long for you?
When I fear you never loved me
But even true love falls apart
I can’t force myself to forget
Because every word of yours shaped my heart