Tired of holding my feelings inside
Having to swallow my own pride
My head is full with your lies
You had the nerve to cry
I slam the door and you scream obscenities to me
I want you to feel the pain you caused
Draining my energy, it was worth it all
Every last chance I gave you took
Stole my brightness like a crook
This loneliness is making me drown
Screaming for help but no one’s around
Without you I don’t know how to be me
It used to be just you and me, now we’re no longer one in the same
I wish I knew how to live again free from the pain
These rain drops on this window are the tears I hold inside
I can’t stand to allow you to see me cry
I don’t know how to help myself, whenever I think of you, I upset myself
I thought I released myself from a cage only to send myself into a bizarre maze
Lost not able to find my way I wish I could erase my pain
Rewinding time to never adhere the lies from your mouth that I would one day hear
Begging you to tell me the truth you stood there and acted like you didn’t have a clue
“I don’t understand the words you are saying” you were disappointed in yourself for getting caught in the game you were playing
One too many lies one too many times, I cannot forgive the fact that you crossed the line
Finally speaking the thoughts that have haunted me
Your friends surrounding me showing your truths
I handed you the sword that you dared to use
You were supposed to be my safe haven, solace, and truth
Instead, you are the fire that burns from within scolding me for the fact that I trusted my own “best friend”
You don’t feel the pain I feel
Betrayed me with my own secrets, speaking words in which should have never been said
Made everyone turn their heads, I lay down at night crying in bed
Is that the only way you knew how to hate me?
I’ll never understand the reason you betrayed me
Filled with fury I was caused to come out of my character in a hurry
Oh, how I wanted to hurt you so bad
I’ll never allow anyone to make me that mad again
Screaming with rage at the top of my lungs leaving a scene to be left undone
I can’t erase it although I wish I could I lost my mind – became unhinged having to still live with you on our burned bridge
I secretly hope you fall through
Although I’m too good of a person to wish death on you
I wish I would have been able to disarm the lies you would tell, the spell you casted
All for what? To have our friendship retracted?
If that was your goal, then you win
I hope you faces the consequences I’m feeling within – blaming myself for letting you in
“Look for yourself you’ll find healing within” how am I supposed to find myself when I just lost my best friend?
Yes, I agree I got rid of you all by myself, but I could no longer endure the pain that I felt
The fake – ness, lies, and rumors fled like birds in the night not knowing where to head
The thing about information is it always gets back to the person that sent for it your karma will lure inside your body until nothing’s left not a single “somebody” to witness your demise
I hope guilt fills you, you’ll never be able to be a good friend
You were never qualified from the beginning but that’s my fault for wishing on a pretty penny
That’d you be able to be the one
You knew my secrets and spread them thick
Like wildfire inside my heart breaking from within
You knew the easiest way to make me break sad to say but I had to walk away
Never again to return the bridge has been burnt to a crisp
You’ll be nothing but a name that used to come off my lips
Mouth filled with lies how dare you hide your face behind those cries making me seem like the bad guy
I wish your existence was null and void all I want is your voice to leave my mind filling my thoughts to the line bursting at the seams shouting out a cry
Help me to see why, oh why
What was the point of your devious words is that really how you wanted to be heard?
I didn’t know how I wanted this to end now I feel uncomfortable laying in my own bed
I said to you I was done I don’t want anything to do with you the care I give is zero and unusable
My reaction to you made you feel that you have won
You may have gotten what you wanted but your change up won’t be forgotten
You did a 180 I kept going in the hopes you’d return to the person I held near to my heart
My words are flowing but my feelings I can’t be showing
Your closet full of skeletons but people I would not let in guess that’s what I get for being an actual friend but that has come to an end
Your secrets I will never tell but this pain I revolt
You seemed like a chamber to bury my secrets in but not every frog turns into a prince
Your stories will unfold you’ll have to face the truth you never told and that it is when your facade will fold our friendship is what you sold all at a price for which I’ll never know and for that is why my heart is turning cold
Countless times I let go of your treacherous ways starting from move in day
My roommate my friend it was supposed to last forever but now the only thing we are is living together