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My love overflows.Ā 

There is no containing the beads of emotions determined to one day seep through my skin.

Iā€™m sat here in the darknessĀ 

Sterile walls and busy mind of pillowfill.Ā 

Pillowfill my mind of happier times when the room didnā€™t feel so cold, so silent.

I long for warming that no amount of blankets will satisfy.Ā  I wish that the space wasnā€™t so wide a gap between the white wall and my body

Always I would pillowfill the innermost corner, Shielding my eyes from any light, from the world and all its noise.Ā  Pretending it doesnā€™t exist.

Like Iā€™m pretending now.

Pretending that I feel secureĀ 

That galaxies projected on my wall were real stars I could wish on. Rather than a remote controlled color show

Too perfect, the settings just rightĀ 

Pillowfill my space with cozy but never comfortĀ 

Because itā€™s not the same

Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I donā€™t think it ever will be.Ā 

Pillowfill and refill my hope.

Janey Locander

Augustana '25

Janey Locander is an Augustana Alumni from the class of ā€˜25 who received majors in WGSS and Psychology along with a Creative Writing Minor. She served as the chapter Senior Editor from 2022-2025. She hopes to continue writing for various publications and for fun. She also intends to keep her advocacy projects going strong post grad. She hopes you enjoy browsing through her works written throughout her time in this chapter.
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