It’s been a long time since I’ve felt grounded in my being
Running away from my problems is a skill
I’ve perfected over the years
Escapism is a funny thing
Momentary relief results in prolonging pain
Prolonging the problems that could be easily fixed by a conscious mind
Anxiety is a funny thing
It’s never right
Yet it captures me every time
And makes me feel like running is the only way to feel alright
But not anymore
I won’t shrink myself just to deal with unpleasant thoughts
I won’t run away from myself
I will care about myself the way I care about everyone else
How can I claim to love others if I can’t show love to myself?
It’s time to prioritize the only person who will be with me forever
And who has been with me from the start
Some will call me selfish,
But it’s my life and I will live it the way I please
I will be the woman my younger self wanted me to become
Unburdened by dangerous thoughts or strangers’ opinions,
Or unhealthy habits and useless obsessions
I will be the woman I so desperately want to be
It’s no longer about everyone else
It’s all about me
I will find freedom in my authentic self
I will be honest and I will be kind
And best of all
I will be me.