Damn. I should have listened to my mother when she told me to let you go a thousand times
But I didn't, I rejected her words.
I thought maybe we just needed a break in between our breaks.
I allowed you to come back in my life
And you accepted each invitation.
Did we really love each other?
Was our bond unbreakable?
Were we soulmates?
Perhaps, I should have known better.
But I was still young, and still learning
All we knew was each other and we were willing to give us that chance to start over.
But each time we
Failed ourselves before we could fail one another.
Denial came first.
We were always in denial that we couldn’t work
We didn’t listen to time.
Time was telling us is time to let go but we just couldn’t
Each break was a reality check that it was time to move on from one another
But after the break was done we always found our way back to each other.
Either I called and you came running, or you called and I was right behind you.
We were best friends, not so much lovers
Our bond was scary.
When we were good it was great, when we were bad it was horrible
I remember each argument we ever had.
The first time we broke up you wasn’t around on my birthday
But still set aside the bullshit to wish me a happy birthday and make it clear that you still loved me.
I loved you too and trust as much as I wished I didn’t, I did
We were never really exes each time we broke up, just non-existent.
Now, I guess you can really call us exes.
And now, we've said things that we cannot take back
More so you than me.
If I recall, I was trying to get you back after I said I wasn’t ready to be with you again
I never listen to myself
Always going against the grain.
You said I was the one
The one you saw yourself with for quite some time.
But now all that doesn’t matter
It will never happen
I'm not the one
And neither are you.
I guess your grandmother was right
I wonder what his initials stand for
Congratulations, you were blessed
You were my best friend for the time being and now he is yours
Hope you do right by him and his mother.
3 long years of up and downs and now we really came to an end.
Our story has reached the finished line
And now I can honestly say
That there is no coming back
No more living in the past
No more taking ownership of you
You don’t belong to me anymore.
I have completely let you go
I am FREE
Here are some final things I want you to know:
I finally deleted our pictures and videos
I’m finally moving on
I wish you nothing but the best
Here's one last I love you
Here’s one last I loved you
Here’s one last I miss you
Here’s one last I missed you
Here’s goodbye to all the fun times we shared
Here’s good riddance to all the fights, cheating, and disrespect
I've had enough and I am tired.
I can’t keep losing myself over and over again when it comes to you
You are and were my 2nd love
Here’s to number three
Maybe this one will last long because
I feel free
You’re out of my life.
There’s no more next time.