I always wanted to be the peppy pretty girl that everyone adores. No matter how much you thought you despised her, you couldn’t help but like her. She had a million friends, was always so nice, and could win over everyone with her contagious smile.
I always wanted to be the thin girl, who was tiny and toned no matter what she ate. Her beautiful sun-kissed skin was always evenly tanned and acne-free. She didn’t even have to work out, but when she did, she did it with ease.
I always wanted to be the girl with perfect hair. The consistently silky strands never stray out of place, never fall into her eyes. They’re always either perfectly curled, or perfectly straightened.
If you are this girl, keep being you. I don’t know how you do it, but I admire you.
This is just simply not me.
I have never been the peppy, pretty girl. I’ve been sleep deprived for who knows how long, and I’m lucky if I wake up in time to get ready. I can barely strike a conversation unless I’ve consumed five cups of coffee. I have a small group of friends, and bless their souls for sticking with me.
I’ve never been very thin, but also never been very big either. I’ve never been able to easily complete a workout. My workouts tend to end in a faceplant on the treadmill. I’ve seemed to perfect the art of being bloated, but not the art of tanning. Despite my best efforts, my skin type has destined me for paleness. Hello eternal snow-kiss tone.
I’ve never had perfect hair. I wake up with to riotous locks every day, and no amount of hairspray does the trick. Curls won’t hold, and it becomes frizzy when straightened.
It seems that I was meant to be a crazy-haired, uncoordinated, grumpy person. I wish I could wakeup fresh faced and friendly, motivated to perfect my look for the day. Unfortunately, I don’t think that I’ll ever be that person. I’m simply not that girl, but that’s perfectly okay. Even though we may idolize and obsess over other people, they see flaws within themselves too. As cliché as it is to say, no one is perfect. Embrace your flaws. Embrace yourself.