Whenever I play videogames, I often tend to think what if I had more lives? What if I had the power to respawn and start over, try again? How differently would I live my life in actuality? It feels simpler to risk one life for something, knowing there are more left to haunt you.
Well that’s an intriguing question. Three more. That seems a lot to me. It is actually. Three more chances! That’s not something that should be underestimated. Funny how that option gives me weird ideas. Mostly of being careless, or to put it better, a free spirit. Suddenly I am getting the urge to try bungeejumping and skydiving. Things I wouldn’t normally consider to do. Definitely not at this age. Like how it feels to take the dive, feel the wind in a rush and just go for something. How does it feel to fly for a moment? Things wouldn’t be so scary if I had the privilege of coming back.
So there is the big one. Be more of a free spirit. That is how I would live differently. I would go out more at night. It’s kind of sad actually. But it’s true. I would hang out more at night, hopefully with friends of course. It’ll be so liberating to cycle in the night. On the road. And change the gear to the last one! Someday, because unfortunately the world doesn’t feel like a very safe place for a girl. For obvious reasons. I mean at least in this imaginative scenario I will not be that scared of going out.
Oh yeah and if life were more like a videogame, where I came back from the dead with all the money I’d spent returned to me, that would be even more fun. I would definitely buy something new and expensive in every life to test it out. For instance, in this life, I would buy all kinds of music equipment and instruments for fun. And would definitely buy more cute and pretty dresses and jewelry, because why not?
Although I have to be honest it was not that easy for me to think about these ideas. Like I thought they would come to me instantly but I guess I am still not sure about what all I want to do. It’s getting serious, I know. Four lives makes it difficult for me to decide how to live. I mean should I be someone responsible in this one or the next one? Should I be responsible at all? Do I just want to have fun and keep trying crazy things in every life. Do I want to try going into a tricky profession that does not give any surety for success? One life alone is already confusing enough to figure out how to live.
Anyway, I guess what I’m saying is if I choose to live differently in that odd case of having four lives, I will imbibe the attitude of being more curious rather than fearful. I would like to think I’ll live with more hope for things, if something doesn’t work out. There would be another chance to have what I couldn’t in one life.