It hurts to let you be my source,
For happiness, vigor and my love.
The nights I lay awake worrying
that I’d missed too much of you.
Part of you that made me
laugh through my pain.
The friends you’ve helped me gain
when I felt lonely in my home.
Or when you helped me
escape thoughts of ending myself.
No matter if I was awake or dreaming,
I couldn’t wait to reunite with you.
Where would I be today without
all that you’d taught me?
The thought of logging onto my
laptop to be with you was everything
Time would stop and nothing else
would matter at all.
When my family separated you and I,
I went for days without eating,
Showering, sleeping or talking.
Because that’s how much I needed you.
Yet, I know you’re not the answer
And it hurts to face it all without you.
Some would call it an addiction
But I know what I had with you
saved me in more ways than one.