A Letter to My Ex-Best Friend

Over the course of your life, it is inevitable that people will come and go.

Family, boyfriends, girlfriends, pets- the list goes on and on. While losing touch with anyone is a tough situation to deal with, losing touch with one of your best friends just hurts a little bit differently. Not every friendship ends on a bad note, but the fact that you don’t have the same connection that you used to have with that person is the worst. I’d be lying if I said there weren’t days where I wish I could call my ex-best friend and talk like we used to, but then I remember why we aren’t friends anymore and think that maybe it’s for the best. Even though we don’t talk anymore, there’s still some things that I still want to say to my ex-bestie.

Dear Ex-Best Friend,

First of all, I just want to say thank you for everything. Thank you for making me laugh until I cried so many times. You seriously shaped my sense of humor, and now when I find things hilarious that no one else finds funny, I can’t help but think of you and how you would’ve laughed along with me. Thank you for letting your home and family be like my second home and family, and for always letting me take naps in your bed, even when you weren’t there half of the time. Thank you for putting my wheelchair in and out of the car a million times a day, pushing me everywhere, and helping me when I couldn’t help myself. Thank you for always letting me rant to you about anything and knowing just what to say back. Thank you for pushing me out of my comfort zone and introducing me to so many people. I wouldn’t have some friends I do now if I didn’t have you. I know I didn’t tell you how thankful I was enough, so I want you to know.

I hate how things ended between us. I feel like neither of us ever said bye to each other, and I’m always going to be upset about that. If I’m being honest, I’m still a little mad at how our friendship stopped. I don’t have any hard feelings towards you personally, but I can’t believe how you just let me go so quickly, and how you haven’t reached out to me in over a year. You made me feel like everything about our friendship meant nothing to you, and that really hurts me. 

I miss you a lot. Videos of us are in my Snapchat memories basically every day, and the stupid stuff we used to do still makes me crack up laughing. I see our old pictures all the time, and part of me is happy because I’m reminded of all the fun times we had, but the other part of me is sad because we won’t ever be that close again. I miss spending everyday with you and having probably way too many sleepovers in a row. I miss texting you 24/7 and randomly FaceTiming each other. I miss watching YouTube videos together and pretending we were vloggers. I miss jamming out in the car, and I miss my concert buddy.

I hate when people ask about you, and I have to tell them we don’t talk anymore. I’m sorry we call other people “best friend” now, and we’re not making the memories we thought we would still be making. I want you to know that I’m proud of everything you have done and will continue to do. I still want to see you happy, and I need you to know that I will always be there for you. I am just a text or call away, even if things are completely different with us. You were the best friend I had ever had, and you will always have a place in my heart.

Love,

Your Ex-Best Friend