Hey, I hope you’re doing well.
I’ve known you for over four years now, and although we haven’t talked since things ended in November, you still cross my mind from time to time. When you do, I remember some of the good memories we had together.
When I think of you I start thinking about how we first met in that cafeteria, and how just a few hours after we talked, you asked for my number. We were lucky enough to have a class together that next semester, and through it I fell hard for you with your gorgeous smile, your flirty ways and, your gorgeous green eyes. You fell for me too, but our timing didn’t work until the next September. I remember not being able to take the tension between us anymore, and that day after school I kissed you… and immediately told you to forget it ever happened.
From there, things got pretty rocky as we spent the next few months trying to decide if we should date, tried dating, broke up, hooked up, and after you went away and came back, we basically declared to each other that we thought we were soulmates. We started dating again; and that Christmas you bought me a beautiful emerald promise ring, it’s matching necklace for Valentine’s Day, and on our two year anniversary you gave me another ring, just like the wedding band I’ve always dreamed about. We went to countless dances and even went to Prom together, a promise we made to each other back in grade nine when we were just friends. You treated me like a princess and honestly, I was so lucky to have you. We travelled around Canada together and even went to the States, seeing concerts, aquariums, going out for dinner and on amazing adventures. Not only did I fall in love with all of you but also your family, your house, your dog and your friends. We were no longer individuals, we became our relationship and that was okay with me.
I’ll never forget when you took me out on your paddleboard in Maine, and we ended up being only a few feet away from loons. Seeing something so beautiful alone with you was amazing and something I’ll never forget. That vacation took my breath away, and I had no idea when things seemed so perfect on that trip, that just three months later we would break up.
That was it, our relationship of over two years was over because when I moved away for university I changed, and so did you, but that’s okay. I think it’s totally fine that we didn’t survive this transition. I’m glad we figured out we weren’t going to be happy early on as things would’ve gotten messy had we gotten more invested.
I hope you find your passion, become the amazing father I know you’ll become and get the life and happiness you deserve, so that you’ll be able to love someone more than you loved me. I know we didn’t make all of our promises come true, like the ones about travelling to Paris or making it through the long distance, but for the next little while I’ll be hoping that you treat your next girlfriend right without making the mistakes you made with me. One day I hope we can be friends again so I can meet the woman who makes you happier than I ever could.
All the best,
Love,
Your High School Sweetheart