Why are you going so fast? Are you obsessed with speed? These are the questions that I ask myself as I’m thinking about the next moment, the next day, the next season. I’ve noticed that in everything we do, we’re constantly looking for something more.
It’s all about the “next factor”, looking for the next destination to feel satisfied at. The next event, the next job, or even the next significant other. I find myself always falling for the idea that happiness and excitement is somewhere else, and having this mindset it was never where I was. It’s just about appreciating every moment and day you have and not pushing life forward. Acknowledge the present because once it’s gone those days can never come back.
Looking back and reminiscing on my high school years, the only memories that stay in my mind are the days where I just complained. Complaining about being bored and wanting to be eighteen already, then when I turned eighteen I just wanted to graduate and go to college. I had really high expectations about college. I arrived at Utica college as an overly excited Freshmen, looking forward to so much. That excitement eventually died down and I became super eager to be an upperclassmen. Now I’m an upperclassmen and I don’t remember being present in those moments or being appreciative of the transitions in my life around that time that ran so smoothly.
Now I’m here, and I think I want to stay in this moment. It’s exhausting moving a thousand miles per minute. I don’t want to miss out on my 20’s focusing on the future. I’ll let that stay unknown for now. Times like this are filled with so much self-discovery and growth, it’s actually uncomfortable at times. Life is about adapting to changes that come your way, be adaptable!