To The Guy I Stopped Giving Chances To,
Even after everything that has happened I still love our story. I love how we met, how we became best friends, and then eventually so much more. Over time our relationship grew from something fun and unique to a giant question mark in my head. The first couple times you made mistakes I forgave quickly and thought that you learned that it wasn’t okay. But then, they continually happened and I continued to forgive. This trend seemed to happen a lot.
I remember the night that I decided I had enough; that there was only so much a person could handle before they give up on someone. As I laid in bed I thought of all of the late night car rides that turned to silence, the long text messages that stopped having any meaning, and the emotional void that I felt from someone that I cared about so much. Even though you had excuses for all of the mistakes that you made I couldn’t help but question what was truth or not. I wanted to believe every word that you were saying, but that was hard when you have already been caught in lies before.
Through many tears and going back and forth in my head I realized that it shouldn’t be like this. Relationships should better a person, not tear them down. All I wanted was for you to fill all of the potential that I knew you possessed, but I believed that you could be that person more than you believed it yourself. I know that if I gave you just one more chance we could have been happy for a while, but it would have made the pain that much worst when this happened again. Even after knowing all of this walking away from you was one of the hardest things that I have done.
I know you cared about me and you regret the things that you did. I believe that you can see how great it could have been if you would have just been honest, but unfortunately those are just words and your actions spoke so much more. I just hope that this can be a lesson for you. I hope that someday you can have an honest relationship and won’t hurt the next girl who comes along.
To the guy that I once cared about too much: I’m thankful for the memories, the lessons, and most of all that I had the strength to stop giving you the chances that in the end you didn’t deserve.
Sincerely,
The Girl Who Walked Away