Everyone says that being in your 20s is fun
Partying, adventures, freedom and exploration
But what about those who
Get married, have kids, or go to jail
But I didn’t want to believe that I would enter the adult world
Or maybe didn’t want to
Until things started to happen
18
I had a classmate in one of my classes
He was cute
My age
Total potential boyfriend material
I was right, in a way
Cause all he talked about was his fiancé
And his upcoming wedding
Missed about a week for the big day
The butterflies in my stomach violently died
As a creepy, yet nagging new sensation was born
19
Scrolling through facebook
A pastime I only do when I’m 200% bored
I came across an old high school classmate
As one does when scrolling through facebook
You know the type
Blond, pretty, athletic, and totally nice
Wearing a full-on wedding dress
Looking like a fairy in the woods
Doing a double take
As one would
Lingered on a loving pic of her and her new hubby
Military I might add
Looking completely and utterly in love
The second occurrence of a teenage wedding in 4 months
That nagging sensation grew stronger
19 (again)
Moving into an apartment is fun
Especially when it’s with friends you love
Gaining an extra independence point
On your way to “adulthood”
Until it quickly became a nightmare
When one of the girls got her first boyfriend
And declared her loyalty with him
Banishing all existing ties with her friends
Leaving them in the pile of dust and hurt words
Following a fallacy of “forever”
With her 3-month-old relationship
20
College is already hard
Loads of homework
The constant threat to yourself
Trying to end your life with a bus
To get free tuition
Pitiful attempts to fall into a relationship
Backing out cause you’ve seen the results
Seeing a ghost of a past ex-something
Cowardliness taking over
Ignoring what could have been
Yet still, wish for another chance
To be better
Do better
Live better
Trying to remember that you’re still young
Even though it seems as though
You’ve lived through 100 past lives
Feeling the exhaustion drain out of your body
With every new person
New experience
New heartbreak
New downfall
New opportunity
Since it comes with the job
20 (still)
I’ve only lived through a fifth of my whole life
Anxious to see what’s next
Ready to jump the finish line
Peak over the hedge
And take a glimpse of my future life
But take a breath
Cause you’re still young
Only 20 years old
And the world still ahead of you
Love still ahead of you
Friendships ahead of you
Different paths ahead of you
And heartbreak still ahead of you
Cause it comes with the job of life
Not living with life means missing out on everything above
Not living life means never becoming the person you are bound to be
Not living life means never being the person you are today
Get out of your head
Stop reliving things you can’t change
Learn from your mistakes
As they shape your character
Yearn for happiness
Don’t force to fill an empty void
Say how you feel in the moment
It will be a big benefit now and later
Only hurting for a second
Keep those close who support you
Trust you
Accept you
Love you
Laugh with you
Challenge you
But never drain you
Or you’ll be left to pick up the pieces
From a break that was fully avoidable