It’s only October and junior year has been a rollercoaster ride. I have been faced with so many different decisions and ultimatums.
It’s been between getting involved within school or hanging with my roommates.
Which club I should join?
What should my minor be?
In my personal opinion, the most important one, where should I live next year?
This year I got way more involved than in previous years and I am a constant ball of stress. Even if I have everything done, there is still something I should be doing. My eye literally has been twitching for three weeks straight. But as much as I complain, I love it. I love having something to do and I love keeping myself busy. With that, I usually have to separate myself from others and get what I need to do done. This means I miss out on movie nights, family dinners and game night. But I know deep down inside it sucks but it will be worth it.
This past week, I decided to live with other people than the ones I currently live with. This is a decision I wanted to do for myself and for my senior year. Like everyone else, my roommates and I have good times and bad times. That is normal. But this year was different, it seemed to be more tense, more passive aggressive and I couldn’t handle it. So when another friend reached out to me to live with her, I couldn’t say no. This caused an uproar and it was my fault. They were upset and mad with me but they had every right to. But again, deep down inside I knew this is what I wanted and what would make me happy. I am so glad that I did. I feel like this will be a breath of fresh air for me. I could not be more excited to spend senior year with my friends.
I am writing this to clear my head and tell myself it’s okay. That it is okay to be stressed. It is okay to spread yourself too thin. It is okay to do things in your best interest. College is your selfish years and I did something selfish for myself. This is okay. Everything happens for a reason.