Dear the girl I thought I knew,
It is so weird to think of the person I was one year ago, or even two. Someone so wrapped up in what I thought was love, what I thought was the one thing I could never live without. Something I put over my family, friends, school and more importantly my wellbeing. I was infatuated with love, obsessed with it, I revolved my entire world around it.
Love it not supposed to hurt and it was not until this past year that I realized that. In the back of my mind I always knew it, but it was something I chose to ignore. That is what a blind eye to a boy’s actions will do to you. I let someone parade around my life like a show, only coming and going and leaving me with temporary happiness. But that is what a relationship is, right? All give and no take? Unfortunately too many girls feed into this nonsense and will go above and beyond for someone who will never deserve it. I wish I knew better, I wish I hadn’t waited around for a boy who was never going to change.
All I can do now is thank myself for realizing it before it was too late. The person I am now is a good person, someone who values friendship, honesty and love. I wake up every morning knowing I am loved by myself. I no longer needed the satisfaction and constant attention that I once did. I love myself enough for the both of us now. My advice for you reading, it to take control of your life. I know that might sound cliche but it is the most freeing thing that you can do. Accept that there is no knight in shining armor, you are the only one in this world who can save you.
You are enough.
Sincerely,
Someone who proves it does get better