You may be wondering what I could I possibly mean when I say that I am a contradictory introvert. Why else would you be reading this, right? Well, it may sound strange but it’s actually a rather common thing to think and feel! An introvert can plain and simply be described as a shy person, or better yet, a person that would prefer a solo night watching netflix to a night raging at a nightclub.
Where an extravert feels revitalized when surrounded by people, an introvert will actually find that being surrounded by a lot of people is slightly draining. It’s hard to go out and socialize when it makes you feel a little uncomfortable. So, as you may have been able to tell, I am a self professed introvert. But what makes me a contradiction, you ask? The fact that I WANT to go out and make friends, I want to out to parties and bars and socialize, but unfortunately I find that it takes A LOT of energy out of me to do so. I also find that I feel awkward, because I’m not amazing at starting up conversations. Lets just say, I’m not a social butterfly. If I stay to myself too often I start feeling lonely and even a bit unbalanced overall. I need to socialize, like everyone else I’m sure, but I have to be honest and admit that it always takes me out of my… independent element.
The solution? Well, I guess if it were as easy as simply deciding to be an extravert instead, most would make that choice. I’m sure it’s not impossible, but it would be an exhausting transition of mindset. I would have to say an introvert who feels the way that I do might find that they need to work on their balance. Maybe spend more time alone, but take the time and effort to put yourself out there with friends at times too. Also, if you find a good group of friends, you’ll find that you feel more comfortable going out and about because you’re surrounded by people you don’t need to feel awkward around. Shout out and best of luck to all who are as confusing in their way of thinking as I am!