I’m not the type of girl to jump through hoops for just anyone, but when I care, I love with my whole heart. I would climb hurdles 50 stories high if it meant that you would do the same thing for me. I understand you moved away, but what is a little distance when someone means so much? Apparently, love is not enough for you, my word is not enough for you to trust me. You call me at 2 am every once in awhile to proclaim your love. Hell, you have even said it while you were sober, but it is not enough yet again. Continuously, you make every excuse in the book such as the distance scares you or that you don’t want to ruin my college experience.
I am 21 years old and have already foolishly committed to two separate long distance relationships. I am only 3 months away from graduating college, and all I want is some consistency in my crazy, stressful life. You can’t give that to me, but I would appreciate if you just admitted it, and then we can finally call it quits. I have pined over you for far too long at this point. We have been doing this strange little dance for a year and a half now. If you didn’t want to ruin my college experience, why have you let it go on for this long? I have this strange feeling that when you made promises to me about being together one day soon, you were only saying it to make me happy. You only created false hope for the both of us because at one point, you genuinely thought something would fall into place.
News flash: a relationship doesn’t develop out of thin air. It takes a lot of hard work, and I understand if you are not ready for that at this point in your life. I have repeatedly expressed my empathy for your situation while in the middle of the same conversation we’ve had 15 times about how things can’t continue on like this. We both need to accept the fact that we are not meant to be.
Maybe years from now when we’re both reflecting on this moment: you in your suburban house with your wife who is a soccer mom that drives a minivan, and me in my 16th flat in some far off land, I hope we can both understand why the chapter had to end. I hope that my tears cease to exist over our broken love. I loved you with my entire being, but that will never be enough to make you take the leap of faith. I am officially putting a halt to this roller coaster ride. I wish I could say it was fun, but it hasn’t been for quite some time now. I wish I could tell you that I hope we can be friends, but right now, I want anything but. Eventually, I hope you find someone to make you the happiest person in the world, but in this moment, I want you to be sad and realize that you are losing me. I am finally walking away.