We are in the season of betterment. Now when I walk into Target, just before I reach my beloved pen aisle, there are dumbbells on display. Although I think that booty bands would make a much more aesthetically-pleasing color display, it does prove one thing: we all want to look even more sizzling than we did last year.
As an Enneagram Three, known as the Achiever, I find creating lists with goals to be quite invigorating. Whenever the new year rolls around, I find comfort in that I am surrounded by other people who are also making lists.
For the new year, I thought about making resolutions like reading before bed and increasing my mile count for running. Then, I realized that I read all day long since I study English, and I usually fall asleep within five minutes of lying down. I am also really loyal to the elliptical. Therefore, those resolutions may not happen.
However, a big reason why those resolutions may not happen is that I am an imperfect person. I think that when we create resolutions, we sometimes forget that life happens. Some days we may just really want a glazed chocolate donut from Dunkin’ rather than eliminating sugar. Other days we may stumble across a frugal and gently used pair of vintage Manolo strappy sandals on an online consignment store and wish to purchase them rather than saving money. Those happen to me, anyway.
While I try to resist this fact as much as I possibly can, I am imperfect.
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Recently I was cleaning my closet because we are living in a panny, and the things we are allowed to do are scant. I came across my iPod nano from middle school. For old time’s sake, I took one of my dad’s chargers for his iPhone 4s, and I put a little juice into the battery. As I was doing laundry, I decided to shuffle my songs to feel like I was in a time warp, and “Taking Chances” from Glee came on. I always enjoyed Rachel the most because she and I are both sopranos with large noses who enjoy J. Crew plaid and have a thing for athletes. Anyways, as I was listening to the song, it got me thinking… maybe it is time to take some chances!
Maybe the things that scare us the most are the things that would actually be the healthiest decisions we’ve made in years – or at least three.
Maybe saying what is actually on our minds will bring us more peace than staying silent.
Maybe trying something new is what will save us from becoming dull and wrinkly.
Maybe making mistakes is what makes us a bit charming.
Maybe not planning our every move will allow for us to be surprised.
Therefore, my resolution that I actually intend on keeping is allowing myself to take chances, knowing that I have the safety net of being an imperfect human being.
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While I was cleaning, I also stumbled upon my high school yearbook. I was struck by both my perfectly manicured french tips in my picture as well as the quote I picked. At the time, I remember feeling a little edgy because I picked one of Carrie Bradshaw’s quotes from Sex and the City. Here is the gem:
“Sometimes, we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”
I shall leave you with that.