Everything I do
Every move I make
It’s no use
And I try so hard
And I smile
But it’s not working.
And I don’t want to cry anymore.
It won’t let me breathe
And it won’t let me see
I can’t move
These sheets swallow me.
It says to me
You have no purpose
They would be better without you
You should give up
You don’t belong here
You will never smile again
And so I turn off the lights
And I fill the bathtub
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The voice gives its last words
“Do it”
And I step into my water.
And I write down every word the voice has ever said to me
And I place them in the water
And watch the ink smear and fade away
And I say
“No”
I want to move
I want to laugh
I want to dance
And so I will.
I will fight
And I won’t listen to you anymore
I will create my own voice
She will say to me
You have a purpose
They are better with you
You should never give up
You are exactly where you belong
And you will smile
And it will be real this time.