When you hear, “college goes by so quickly, enjoy every minute “as an underclassman, you tend to roll your eyes. From second semester of freshmen year, I honestly could not wait to leave. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love all of my friends/school, but I know for me personally, I could not wait to graduate, and get out in the “real world”. However everything changed a few weeks ago.
My parents made me order my cap and gown, and it almost arrived instantly. When I noticed the box sitting in my garage, my stomach dropped…..and not in the good way. I brought the box into my apartment, and stared at it in silence for a good ten minutes straight. I decided to hide it in the back of my closet, and not open it (it’s still unopened).
I think this one package really scared me; it’s a representation of 4 years filled of good times, bad times, success, and meltdowns.
This week is officially week five, meaning we have 5 weeks left of college, and approximately 40 days left. And the real question I keep asking myself is what the fuck am I doing with my life?
I feel like everyone around me has a plan for after graduation…..Then there’s me. The girl who completed 8 internships during college, worked for some of the top brands within the fashion industry, and yet for the first time in my life, I have no idea what I’m doing starting June 5th.
What I guess I’m trying to say is that you’re not alone with this feeling of vulnerability, confusion, and stress. Even though it may seem like EVERYONE has their life together, I guarantee more are feeling this way, rather than confident they’ve found their “forever career”…..because let’s be real…..they probably won’t be at that company more than two years.
To quote my four favorite Baltimore boys (All Time Low), “Take a breath, and let the rest come easy”. You have time to figure out your life. Not only do you have five weeks of school, but loan payments don’t start for another six months (;