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Style

The Conflict Between my Style and My Desired Style

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This article is written by a student writer from the Her Campus at SBU chapter.

Have you ever experienced a period in your life where a new chapter begins as another chapter closes? With this transitional season, did you feel the need or want to completely transform your wardrobe and style? Well, I have had that urge to transform my wardrobe, but my style has been the same for close to a decade. For the last several years, I have had this conflict where I wear a hoodie and leggings, sometimes jeans every day. Recently, I had this scary realization that not one, but multiple pieces of my clothing, have been a part of my everyday wardrobe since not only high school but for one piece of clothing… since middle school. Cringey I know.

For those who see me around campus enough to see me wearing the same few things all the time, you might be thinking to yourself, “Why the hell is she wearing a sweatshirt from 2013?” My response to this potential question would be this, “ I have a completely different style dreamed up that you would never think a girl like me would ever remotely want to wear. Why is this? Well, after dedicating some thought to it, I think it’s a combination of many things. 

Growing up I was perceived by my peers as a smart, quiet, tomboy girl. And based on the style I have today, that earlier perception, I would say, is pretty much the same. I think part of the reason I haven’t taken the leap to completely transform my wardrobe is because I think I still habitually think about the tomboy I am and how I am supposed to dress based on that perception. Now you may be thinking, “What do you mean how you’re supposed to dress?” And to be honest, I consider myself to be a person that doesn’t care about what most people think. Therefore, it might be more from a place of mixed anxiety and disappointment when something I like doesn’t fit well with my body type. And that is why I am not actively living as the other persona I have in the form of thousands of Pinterest pins, LTK favorite posts, TikToks, etc. 

Now as for the specifics of this desired style of mine, it consists of everything my current wardrobe doesn’t. Some of the brands I like that demonstrate this style include Free People, Revolve and many more. This style includes dresses, skirts, cute crop tops, leather, cropped and oversized jackets perfect for a night out adding bright colors and patterns and anything else that makes me feel amazing. This desired style is sexy and sophisticated and doesn’t make me dread unwanted attention that I have always hated but rather is the style that I see myself feeling confident in. This is the true style I like and want to begin incorporating into my life. Everyone goes through phases where they want to switch it up and make changes, and I think it’s about time I made this change too. 

Johanna is currently a Senior Health & Society major, with a minor in Business Administration. This is her first semester writing for Her Campus. Aside from Her Campus, Johanna works as a Resident Assistant as well as a volunteer EMT on MERT, St. Bonaventure's emergency response team. In her time away from academics, Johanna enjoys the sport of Drag Racing in the summers, spending time with friends, watching TV, and listening to music.