I read a book recently and it inspired me. So much so, that I’m now dedicating my profile here as my own personal blog, as I’m too stupid to create my own website. That said, I will probably still talk about cars, motorsports, etc., but I’m now going to focus on doing more personable stuff. Each week, I will reflect on something that made me feel, or an event that happened that I need to talk about. To start off this new journey (and the semester) I’m jumping off the deep-end and going in strong.
A couple weeks before Christmas break, I started having issues with my (now ex) roommate. She had had problems with her first roommate, and my first roommate was friends with her first roommate, so we decided to swap. Everything was great, up until it wasn’t.
You see, I’m neurodivergent. I don’t understand social cues, I don’t know how to communicate effectively, and I sure as hell don’t know how to explain to people how I’m feeling.
Instead of talking the issue out with her I snapped, because that’s the only way I know how to communicate. By the time I finally realized how to fix the problem, the RD had been contacted, and long story short, I live alone now.
Basically, if you’re neurodivergent like me, or if you have the same problems as me I should say you’re not going to have a great personal life.
I don’t know how to communicate in the best ways, and when I do finally realize how to communicate, the situation has come and gone. I also don’t know how to deal with things like other people do, and instead of expressing our distaste with something normally, I lash out and hurt other people because I don’t know any other way around that.
Being neurodivergent, we have to go through enough stuff as it is. Struggling to do basic daily tasks, making eye contact, etc. It doesn’t make things easier for us when the people I think are on my side turn against me because I did something that’s out of my control.
My piece of advice to you is this: be kind to people, and give them the time of day. You never know what someone is going through, even if they put up a tough front.