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I have been reflecting a lot recently on people who had the greatest impact on my life. Some for better and some for worse. But either way, I learned very valuable life lessons I will carry for the rest of my life. Most of these are people I may never see or speak to ever again and this honestly makes me really sad. I will never be able to tell these people how much they mean to me, so these are letters I will never address, texts I will never send, and words I will never say. 

Dear #1

            I don’t know if there will be anyone for the rest of my life who will shape who I am the way you did. On many days I questioned all the hard work I put in and all the dedication I had when it felt like it would never amount to anything or never matter. Now, I am learning that what you taught me applies not only to sports but every other aspect of my life. You taught me to be confident, to be a leader, and to stand up not only for myself but for what is right.

There is no way I will ever be able to repay you for everything you have done for me. I thanked you a million times, but now that I can’t say it, a million doesn’t seem like enough. I could say thank you now, but I know you would never reply. 

I also want to say I am sorry. I am so sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me. I think about what I could have done to help every day, but I know this was one time I could not have made a difference. I am sorry I moved on, but you stayed. Even when I told you not to; you stayed. And that is ultimately where our paths divided and may never again cross. I hope you can forgive me because I have forgiven myself.

Dear #2 

            I have thought so many times about what I would say when I saw you, but every time I just couldn’t do it. You were our friend but that ultimately didn’t matter. To you, something else was more important. Your friendship taught me that some people don’t change. As long as I have known you, you have been a terrible person, and I don’t think anything will ever change that. I tried so hard to justify your behavior to friends and family and you proved them all right. 

I have now learned that I was trying to change you, but you were changing me. You made me a bad person. You taught me what friendship isn’t, and I now know what real friends are. I have so many questions that will probably never be answered. 

Why did you do it? How did you live with it for so long? Do you regret it? Do you feel bad at all? 

Now writing this, I don’t think the answers to any of these questions would matter because I don’t think I will ever forgive you. 

Dear #3

            I honestly thought you would be in my life forever. I thought you would be there for the most important moments in my life. I thought we would be celebrating at graduation together. I thought we would be bridesmaids at each other’s weddings. I thought we would be like those women who force their kids to be friends. But you must not have felt this way. It was so easy for you to walk away and not look back. I still don’t know how you did that. I never would have, or could have, done that to you. There are so many things I could have done differently to keep you from hating me. But I think no matter what I did you would have found a reason to toss me to the side because you thought you would find better. Now, I really think you regret it, even if you will never admit it. I can’t apologize because I did nothing wrong, but if you ever wanted to be friends again, I will always be there for you. 

From,

Delaney 

Delaney Chase is the co-campus correspondent for the St. Bonaventure University Her Campus chapter. She works with the other campus correspondent and various board members to communicate with the rest of the Her Campus community as well as edit articles and lead weekly meetings. Delaney is a junior and is currently studying journalism and political science. She also is a writer for TAP into Greater Olean, an online news platform in the St. Bonaventure area, as well as a captain of the St. Bonaventure Women's Club Basketball team and Vice President of SBU for Equality. She enjoys hearing and sharing experiences with those of similar interests and enjoys being involved in different activities across the SBU campus. She finds this a great way to gain connections with those at her university and in nearby areas. She is enjoys the ability to gain experience and further her knowledge of the communications field. Outside of her time in school, Delaney loves listening to Taylor Swift and will take absolutely any opportunity to bring her up in conversation. She can often be found at the campus Starbucks with her friends ordering a pumpkin spice latte or brown sugar oat milk shaken espresso. She enjoys reading classic novels but also loves watching the trashiest reality TV shows.