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This is the story of the point of view from a survivor.

To the boy who showed me how not to love

When we were together you at first made it

seem like true love.

How that faded too quick

Like melting a candle wick.

You started out so sweet

And only lived so far down the street.

How can I now say?

I loved seeing you everyday.

Friendship turned into love with passion

When I was down you always stopped by in fashion.

You would bring me chocolates or a flower

And call me your wildflower!

We could spend hours talking on the phone

Back then I never felt alone. 

Things quickly began to change

And you started acting strange.

The boy I grew up with turned into someone new

I couldn’t understand how you could turn someone black and blue.

Grew up training together

To end up being scared of you forever.

Moments that have passed by

And it wasn’t until the end that I saw you as a bad guy.

Parts of me began to hurt

But it could be covered with pants and a shirt.

I was too afraid to say

What was going on everyday. 

I finally began to realize

There are some things I shouldn’t have to disguise.

I started finally to actually see

Who was doing this to me.

The boy I grew to love

Did things that no one should be proud of.

I tried to stay away

That is where pain became your new “play”

The moment I say no

Is when you let loose all control and let go.

You never walked away

This is where I begin to “fade”.

Even though my sight began to fade

I could feel you invade. 

I didn’t feel you stop

Even as my hand dropped.

Waking up in an unfamiliar place

Only to see her scared face.

She stayed by my side

And told me no more I would have to hide. 

I didn’t know what to do

Because all I saw was black and blue.

I was afraid what to say

Because I told him “I love you” that day.

When I saw his face again

The color in my face began to drain.

I wanted him gone

But this dragged on

He refused to leave

His fake emotions people began to believe

Give her some medicine to put her at ease

 This is the moment he could seize

Only broken when the girl walked in

And quickly followed with screamin’

To the boy who I once loved

You showed me how to feel empty of…

Part of me I will never get back

But I am finally on track

To be the girl who deserves to be loved

And thanks the boy who showed her how not to be loved. 

SEXUAL ASSAULT: If you or someone you know has been sexually assaulted, you can call the National Sexual Assault Telephone Hotline at 800-656-HOPE (4673) or visit hotline.rainn.org.

Veronica A(V) is the Campus Correspondent at HC @ SAU. She oversees the entire chapter including editorial, events, social media, etc. Beyond HC, V is involved on campus. She is the President of DAPi. She is the Social Media Director for SAAT, and a Sexual Assault Advocate. Veronica is majoring in Early Childhood Education with an endorsement in Special Education and a minor in Music. She is currently student teaching!!! In her freetime, V plays the flute and other instruments and can sing. She used to play and coach softball. Veronica was born in Florida but now lives in Illinois. She also has 2 cats at home. She was the D.E.I. Ambassador for 2 years.