I Shaved My Head and Don't Regret It

"I Shaved My Head and Don't Regret It"

      Hearing the sound of the shaver going against my head was one of the most frightening sounds I have ever heard. I remember peeking through my “closed” eyes at one point and I looked like one of those Barbie dolls when their hair falls out. In that moment, I was crying. Why was I doing this? Was I having A Britney Spears moment? A quarter-life crisis? However, when my boyfriend, now fiancè, finished shaving off all of the long pieces of hair that hung over my face he had me open my eyes. I haven’t seen him ever look at me like that before. He held my face and said “You look so beautiful” and he kissed me with more love than I have ever felt in my entire life.  

As I looked in the mirror, I didn’t recognize the person who was looking back at me. This was the first time I wasn’t hiding behind anything, I couldn’t hide behind the hair that I hid behind for all of my life. After realizing what I had done, I was terrified of what people would think. All my life I was had the complement of: “Your hair is so beautiful,” and I was worried that was the only thing that was going to allow me to be beautiful...to actually feel beautiful. 

Ever since I was a little girl, I always pictured what I would look like. I would look in my mirror, combing through my hair seeing it as it would be straight and blonde. I pictured myself slender, with a narrow face- a completely different person than I am today. However, in a way it is better than I imagined. The person who I am today is stronger, open-minded, and with a shaved head. When I thought of having confidence, I always thought it of having long hair was going to make me beautiful. All the guys I dated before even told me that long hair looked better on me. My fiancé loved my hair as well, he would brush it every night and always said how beautiful I was. 

It’s been a year since I shaved my head and having a short haircut, he tells me how beautiful I am every single day. I've grown so much from this experience and I recommend you to shave your head or even do something dramatic with your hair at least once. It is an adrenaline rush that you have complete control over this aspect of your life. It makes me feel alive, new. It gave me the inspiration to just be myself and not care what people thought. Did I wake up some days and feel awful and didn't want to be seen in public? Absolutely. However, it is important to remember that beauty is what you make of it. You shouldn't follow beauty standards created by society. Be you, be bold, and heck...go bald!