Alive

Like I keep injecting myself

So temporary

That feeling of freedom

But then i am liberated

 

Freed from my own mind

The voices don’t yell in my head

anymore

 

Then it wears off,

The typewriters don’t click

And the feeling comes again

It washes over me

 

It drowns me.

 

Struggling for air

I reach for oxygen

For anything

 

And suddenly

Although it’s blurry

I see someone else in these waters

 

I grab a hand

It holds mine

suddenly

I lie above the water

 

Never more alive.